Torn between two

Security seems real
And so does the way I feel
In my mind you were someone admired
Not someone who'd set my heart on fire
I remember our first time
You devoured me
Destroy my innocence and my life
I didn't cry
I didn't speak
But that security evaporated
I was left troubled, and weak.

Happiness seems real
And so does the way I feel
You are my prince who will never leave my side
I'm sorry I'm the girl who always gives you lies
During the day I pretend away
Hiding the fact that at night
I'm someone else's slave
I still won't cry
I still won't speak
But as I give you false happiness
Mine starts to cease

My apology seems real
You were my true love
He was the fake
it doesn't matter, you say
Because you shared the same bait
My excuse isn’t feasible
My apology
unbelievable
I cried
I spoke
Because I divided my heart
it ended up broke