If I Don't

If I don't love him,
Why do I have sex with him?
Why do I fall for his eyes,
And fall asleep at his touch?

If I don't love him,
Why does it feel right?
Why does life become easier,
And my sun shines?

If I don't love him,
Why does it hurt to think it?
Why does it make me want to cry,
And say 'I Love You'?

If I don't love him,
Why do I?