I want to cry

I want to cry But I can't
Nothing in my world is clear
I'm so tired of pretending
Images grow wavey through my tears
I beat my fists into the walls
Slowly I give up the fight
I want to scream through the sobs
I need your grace tonight

Crying to the God I want to know
I'm giving You my load
I pass to You my scars
Your blood has overflowed