I fear what i am,
i fear him,
i cry out in the night,
wanting him,
i let the salty tears flow,
i let my bet wet with them,
for they mean nothing,
pain cannot be healed,
when it has been caused ,
by that which you love,
he has cut away my soul with a blunt knife,
and is murdering me ,
inside out,
drowning me,
in the darkness,
i forget my life before,
all i see is the pain.
and i live from it,
i grow stronger,
and when i am almost healed,
i shall take his soul,
for the one i lost,
i need this pain,
to show me,
i am cold,
to love.
