Confusing Words

What words should I write
The same usual stuff
The feelings i try to fight
Or how Ive had enough

The sensitivity
Sadness, Depression
All my abilities
All these confessions

But I need to think
Of all things new
The memories I link
To the things I knew

Whose the one that decides
Of our dreams, realities
Our sadness, our suicides
What does this mean to me

The words that I think of
May be confusing to you
But this is what I dream of
And what I have to live through

How can I explain
These poems I feel
The feelings I gain
And explain of what is real

My world through bleeding eyes
To you this is my truth
To understand these lies
To understand my youth...