A Sickness Called Heartbreak

Am I just a shadow that stands out on your wall.
Am I just another girl that is outdone by them all.

I'm standing here among them with but a frown upon my face.
I was asleep for so long and woke up to a different place.

I changed my ways just for them, such a foolish thing to do.
And now I'm in over my head with my mistakes burning me through.

I'm falling deeper into my violent silent rage.
The words I've held are here now on every single page.

I wasn't only here for you to make my life your own.
The fact that I was only dreaming myself into pain was greatly shown.

I was jolted out of happiness into sudden deep despair.
My open eyes and open ears found me standing there.

I was down and I was depressed.
I was scared, a reckless mess.

I still am the same old me if you look into my heart.
But look no further than they do and you will only see me fall apart.

Like a truthful mirror that reflects upon us all.
It's there to see our aches, our pains, and every time we fall.

The life I had will only be a broken up reprise.
Of every time I found a love that had given up and died.

It chills me now to hear your voice everywhere I go.
It rings throughout my hollow bones and leaves me with no place to go.

Surrender my lovely fate and let me be at your side.
Let me lift your heavy burden so you will no longer hide.

I'm here to take away the hurt and your every single pain.
I'm here to hold you close to me and dance with you in the rain.

Don't let go, take my hand.
We'll show them the life we had planned.

I look up to you and smile at last.
My life without you has gone so fast.

The rain pours down but we don't care.
We'll dance until it leads us there.

The rain soon melts into falling snow.
Then into winds that twirl and blow.

Then on to golden leaves that fall and crunch upon every sound.
Then here comes the rain again pelting the hardened ground.

And we continue to dance our way through every weather that has come and gone.
The weather we both have endured never stayed for long.

Promise to never leave me, promise that you'll stay.
Promise that you love me and you'll never go away.

I'll keep on fighting my way up to reach my falling star.
And pull it back down to earth and stop this raging war.

If only they could say the same for the one's who laughed.
They never had a love so great and lost their selves in the past.

I pity all who cannot see the way you make me smile.
And those who try to take my dreams to destroy and defile.

They have no happiness to speak for and they have no heart at best.
They're broken down, heart torn out and need to take a rest.

Sleep through life, sleep through death as long as it endures.
Then wake to find a new life full of love, a love that always cures.

Cures a sickness known far and wide by all who have lived a life of their own.
A sickness known as a heartbreak that over time has grown.

There is someone for everyone as I have been told.
And the love that they can give cannot be bought or sold.

It is a faithful calling for patient hearts and patient souls.
And it is also worth the wait if it is a needed goal.