A poor excuse, for blood long spilled
The time was gone, the guilt was filled
I didnt know, it didnâ??t fix
Tears and blood, couldnâ??t mix
I didnt want to stop it now
I couldnt ever see the how
The mathematics of, this sick trait
Was my odd fancy, my dead fate?
Please dont ask me, now to see
Without the blood, could I be?
I couldnt be, the same as you
Without the cuts, the lies not true
I am not, the same sane girl, you used to see
I am not safe, no more cut free
Paying the price, for things long past
The blood spilled freely, oh so fast
I couldnt stop, and now Im done
From lies and numbness, I wonâ??t run
I wanted to ask you, to please end
These lies and cuts, my willâ??s bend
I tried to blame, these things on pain
The blood I spilled, turned to rain
I wanted to, make this fake
To stop all that was at stake
A poor excuse, for why I cried
For all those times, I lied, and lied
Those fake beliefs, in what I did
From the truths, my eyes hid
No one to blame, for cuts I cut
I opened my eyes, and squeezed them shut
I didnt want to see the why
Of what I do, endorphins high
