Feel it coming on again
feel the emptiness expand from deep within
know its there now, and will never go away
where has this new feeling come from??
suffocating me
drowning in my own sorrow
but nothing matters anymore
as i begin to know this feeling i realize
its just another pain for me to suck up
in the hopes that someday my heart will turn to stone
who knew,
that people could self mutilate more than their own body.
but as this feeling settles in that fails to matter
nothing matters any more
cuz I'm empty,
my soul sucked out by life.
who knew that this was only the beginning
why cant it be the end??
how long must i endure this torture??
why is it here??
what is this?? it can be nothing more than my pain
my brokenness
my guilt
and all the guilt i never gave you
the pain you gave me,
when i tried to show you
to keep you from falling
do you know what you are doing??
do you know what it is that you are toying with??
what is this??
is this the emptiness or is this the truth telling me this??
i find myself more alone than i have ever been before
i find i have more pain than ever before
i find more guilt than ever before
i find myself questioning everything
