UnHappy

I’m walking with my head down everybody looking at me/
I’m trying to keep my head up and smile but I can’t cause I’m so unhappy/
I close my eyes and see nothing but pain but it’s also hard to keep them open/
Cause it’s only me in this world destined to die alone but yet and still I’m hoping/
Its like a prison, I’m trapped in forever, never to be forgiven/
I know it’s better in heaven cause where I’m at now is far from what we call living/
I’m missing so much in my life still searching for a blessing/
Stressing constantly over all the misery that I have witnessed/
Been threw so much sorrow that all my joy is diminished/
I’m walking alone here on this earth while all my family and peers/
Have left me to live in the sky threw my childhood and adolescent years/
I have shed so many tears and now I’m growing numb to the fear/
I’m so use to loosing what I love, all that’s left is the man in the mirror/
Honestly I’m happy that the end is getting nearer/
Cause I’m fed up with living in hell its time for the smiles to become realer/
These days my only friend is my misery; darkness is all that’s found in my writing/
That’s all I really have since love is extinguished ever since I lost the spark to ignite it/
Why continue fighting/ I have nothing more to fight for, no reason for hiding/
I never could stop the rain from pounding or the lightning from striking/ its only natural so if this is what’s meant to be I except that but good-bye because I’m so sick of typing/

not my best poem, i kinda wrote to fast