Maybe you would understand

You dont seem to be capable of loving me and keeping me completely happy,
Is it fear that makes you run, or am I a fool to think you were here at all?
You lay right next to me, and whisper your lies into my ear,
Telling me what I want, but not being what I need.
I watch you. Smiling with them, pretending like I used to.
I feel you. Shaking next to me, vulnerable just like I am.
You spin your web of lies so convincingly,
And Im so trapped in your clutches, unable to break free.
Even if I wanted to leave you I couldnt,
But I dont want to leave, that was always your job.

Youre screaming at me that its time to move on,
Im sitting here taking it all, feeling every word bruise within.
You push me away from you, tell me its time to move on,
But when youre alone in the world, you pull me back in.
You tell me it was never meant to last, that we were too young,
And yet I can almost time your casual entrance back into my life.

You dont understand why I care,
You dont understand why I still listen,
You dont understand why I break my bones holding on,
You dont understand why I let you destroy me.
You dont understand why Im always behind you, breaking your fall.
You dont even understand the meaning of love.

But maybe if you looked in your mirror,
If you ripped out my eyes as carelessly as you did my heart,
Then saw through my eyes.
You would understand why I stay around waiting for you.
Maybe then youd understand what love is.