Why should I care whether I live or die?
My life has been nothing but pain
You never knew my life had secrets
You never knew what I did in the quiet
You donâ??t know where the scars came from
You ask me why I did it and if I still did it
When I didnâ??t respond you knew the worse
My heart is so heavy with sorrow
You always thought I was telling the truth
You always trusted me to say it all
But my deepest secrets I always kept to myself
Even when you asked how I was I always lied
I know a friend would tell you everything
But how would a friend respond to so much pain
How could you tell me everything would be ok?
How could you stop me from losing control?
My heart is heavy with the sorrow of your love
I canâ??t stand telling you the truth knowing your feelings
Knowing the trust you once felt for me would be gone
Knowing that the worry you had for me would escalate into panic
Iâ??m sorry for the pain I have caused you knowing the truth
The truth hurts this I know but I needed to tell you
I canâ??t live this way anymore my heart is in pieces
I canâ??t let anyone else deal with the pain I live with everyday
I love you with all my heart and I would never have made it this far
You mean the world to me and I know this will hurt you
But I have to go my life has been lived far to long
Its time for me to go and let you live on
