Just show me you care

I wanted to say something to you,
I didn't know what,
I just wanted to say something,
To know that you were there,
To know i could still talk to you.
To see if you really cared.
Or if we could still be friends.
I wanted to say Hi,
I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
I didn't even want to smile around you,
But i had to..
So you didn't know how much you hurt me.
Every time i went to say something,
My words, they escaped me,
Like the rifle from my hands.
The words,
sounded so perfect in my head,
but when i went to say them,
I couldn't get them out.
I wanted to say I still love you,
But i know you don't feel the same,
I wanted to kiss you,
But I knew i couldn't,
I wanted you to hold me,
But I knew i lost that.
I just want you back,
But i know i cant have you.
Just show me you still care,
Or that you don't.
Just tell me if you hate me,
or like me,
or love me.
I know it could never happen again,
only in my dreams,
But dreams never come true,
Do they?
They seem so distant,
like me and you.
Never to come true,
to make you happy.
They are your dreams,
That stay in your head,
and haunt you,
until you give in to them,
And do what you promised you never would.
Just show me you care.
Because I still do.