Just Thoughts

First of all, baby, I Love You. I love you with all of my heart and nothing will ever change that. I will still love you tomorrow, the next day, and years from now.

And knowing that you love me is enough for me. I have been waiting for you to tell me that for six months. But knowing that you care for her kills me. Knowing that someone is able to see you, touch you, and hear you when I can't...Oh God.

Please tell me that you haven't touched her. And if you have, please, babe, stop for us. Don't ruin everything. Please.

And, honey, put the bottle down. It won't help you or me. Or us. Another drink won't make the pain go away. I will still be here and you will still be there.

Don't ever say that I am the only person who keeps you from killing yourself. I can't love on this earth without you. I'm serious when i say that if you die, I die. Babe, if anything were to happen to you...I don't know what i would do. I couldn't live through that.

Just be strong for me, Jack. I can't find my strength anymore. Hold on for me. For us. Just think of me smiling and hold on.

I Love You.