Dear Mom,

I know you were happy
When you knew I was to come
And knew that you and daddy
Would soon be dad and mom

Though it was not the right moment
You were not married yet back then
But you two fell in love
Within the short time that you have spent

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And then I was born
To this world I didn't know
And you were to guide me
Only the truth you shall show

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As I grew up
And then turned three
You gave me what I wanted
Like the sights I wanted to see

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As time passed by
I noticed you grew fatter
And I woke up one day
And saw my baby brother

So you decided it was time
To take the commitment and to vow
That you and dad will be together
'Til forever and now

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Brother and I
Grew up together
With the tender-loving care
You and dad have showered

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Within a decade
Things started to go wrong
But God suddenly sent a gift
That kept our family strong

It was another baby brother
He was like an angel from heaven
That God has sent for us
To take away our burden

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But suddenly I felt wrong
I felt I was a slave
It seemed I didn't belong
To this family God gave

You started to neglect me
Let me do all the chores
You said they were my responsibility
But I believe they were yours

One day, I still can't go to school
'Cause I had to iron all our clothes
By the time I was through
The school gates were already closed

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Not a year after
My baby sister was born
I thought it was over
But the last one was born

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Now that we are five
Angels that you have
I thought we were too much
So into a devil I turned out

I started to rebel
Pain is all I could give
I swore to do so
As long as I lived

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Now I'm a teen
Things got worse
'Cause you make me feel nothing
And I'm just a curse

My Birthday gift for you was sorrow
And on Christmas Day is pain
On Valentine's is heartache
And for everyday is rain

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Deep inside I want to try
To be good and change
But when I start to do so
You only think I am strange

You insult me in front of people
People I do not know
But I don't show my shame
And instead put up the show

The show of anger
That dwells inside my heart
And I never shed tears
Though it tears me apart

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I have had enough pain
And I know you have had enough, too
So I wrote this poem
To apologize to you

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Mom, I want to apologize
For all the things I have done
I want to tell you these things
Before I wake up one day and you are gone

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Mom, despite the hurt you are giving me
And the same thing I am giving you
I know I would be insane
If I live without you
I love you so much, Mom
More than a lover or two
And I know that you will love me
More than a lover could do

I'm so sorry, Mom
For I give you dismay
I want to tell you I love you
Every night and every day
Every minute and every second
Of this life that you gave
I do not regret a thing
Every moment I have saved

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*I'm probably waiting for the perfect time to let her read this. I guess it would be on Christmas Day.