Vicious Cycle

Bound and chained in this abode
My haven, my home, my prison this box
Incarcerated by a will of my own
Unable to regurgitate your keys to these locks

At first the blame was clumsily misplaced
In those most convenient of places
Flying def and dumb, blind and numb
pointing fingers like guns with no basis

An innocent love tainted hatred...
My sights were only set on you
and I'm not sorry for singling you out like that,
its what you've trained this rotting heart to do

Pity, I lacked the courage to squeeze
so now I'm longing for nights rest
The trigger that cushions my finger like a pillow
seems like the only form I'll get

For when I finally retire
and lay down my weary weapons,
you trespass through my safest of places
turning incubus into life's ugly lessons

This is my own fault,
like they are still my dreams
and though you arrive uninvited
I lack the heart to ask you to leave

I'm detached enough now to know
I brought this on myself,
I abused you like a drug
the way I do everything else

And thats why I'm in shackles,
serving whats left of my life sentence
because when you turned your back on my dream

My love turned in to vengeance