Hard to get up

Watching you, hugging me.all the things that we used to be.
The trails have gone on for so long..i dont know if i know my way back home.
My eyes have been on you for so long ..i dont know if i could turn away.
This is goodbye.i can feel it..it's coming from your eyes.
Tears of sadness is drowning me..you used to save me.but now i cant seem to breathe.
Watching you. smiling back over at me. the most sweetest look..but unbearable. You turn around just to glance over but i fall..i fall to the ground.. I fall.. and i cant hear the sounds.
Your gone, forever. its been so long. But now you've walked away.you've realized that I'm not worth all Ur days in time.
I get back up. i dust off my dress. I try to hold your hand..but jerk away. then i knew..
this was goodbye.
It's just been so long. can i find another you..that cares about me,treated me like you used to?could i ever move on. can i find my heart again..after its been broken for so long. Can i find a guy..that cares about me.more then you ever did. One thats strong enough..to pick me up. & make things as they used to be.
thats all i wanted.
a guy that TRULLY loved me.