It's Just Me

Hey God, it's just me.
I hope you're out there long enough to see.

Today I'm lonely and I really don't know why.
All I feel like doing is having a good cry.

I shouldn't feel so alone they say.
Because you're supposed to be with me all the way.

I don't always feel you anymore
And sometimes I wonder what praying is really for.

I try my best and it's still not good enough.
Times are not getting easier, in fact they're getting rough.

Hey God, it's just me.
If you are out there, don't let me be.

I'm listening and I'm trying my very best.
To see the good in this world I'm in with all the rest.

Will I ever gain the love I desire?
Will I ever light my inner fire?

Do you believe in me when I don't?
Do you pave the way when I won''t?

I know that today it's Christmas Day.
I feel so bad I don't know what to say.

Hey God, it's just me.
I'm wishing that you would let me see.

Are there good people in this crazy world anymore?
Tell me why I'm here and what I'm good for

Am I supposed to be a hand that guides
People to better things or even better lives?

Should I give more that I ever will receive?
Is there anything left to have faith in or even still believe?

God, please show if any part of you is there.
Please show me that someone else still cares.

Hey God, maybe I'll just leave you be.
But if you're out there please say "Hey, It's Just me."

***It's Christmas, but I am feeling so kinda down today. I am not spending the day with most of my family like in years past and lately I feel as if no one really cares if I exist...even God. This poem is not one of my best, just a ramble of thoughts at 2 am while I wish there was someone around to talk to..