I'm Ok

Looking at you
I know what you see
From your expression
I know what youre thinking about me

You think Im so happy
With this smile across my face
Enjoying my whole life
But Im really a disgrace

This smile isnt real
It is a complete lie
Its just as fake
As me saying I dont want to cry

Im holding back these tears
Every second of every day
I dont let weakness show
In any single way

Covering up my feelings
With smiles and bright eyes
But deep down inside
My entire body cries

It cries for happiness
And care from a friend
All I ever wanted
Was for my broken heart to mend

But still Im stuck
Alone and in a lie
Keeping my feelings secret
Til the day that I die

But as long as I can still fake
This smile you see
And hold back a tear
Im ok to me

And thats how Ill stay
Everytime you ask,"how are you"
Ill answer "ok,
And how about you?"

Never letting you know
And never will I reveal
The secrets I keep
Behind smiles, Ill conceal

And at night when I sit
And wonder why
I am the way I am
To myself, Ill just lie

As long as I can still fake
This smile you see
And hold back a tear
Im ok to me