How is one supposed to cope with the same issues over again. Three times in one year, the pain is unbearable and one cant begin to explain the feeling. Who to turn to and what to do. Constantly questioning ones self is this my life plan and is this supposed to keep happening to me? How do I begin to face a new situation when I'm not even over the last one? Dont know who to run to or what to do. And what if the one who promised to be there for you and the one who put you in this situation turned his back on you. How do you continue a whole nine months without the support you need the most. And whos to say whether or not this situation will last that long. 2 miscarriages in one year I'm thinking damn I must be cursed. Can I even bear a child is it worth the risk. So what do I do. Should I allow this precious being a chance at life or should I think long and hard before I make my decision. What do I have to offer to it. I can barely take care of my damn self. So lost and confused, but I'm looking for love maybe just maybe my baby will be that love that I need.
