Trying

I'm always the one torn apart
The one that wants to compromise
Alone in the dark
The one that always cries

Talking to you on the phone
Is just a fleet of happiness
After, I feel alone
And filled with emptiness

Trying to keep us happy
To get you to keep wanting me
You tell me I'm sappy
And get really angry

I'm just trying to keep us together
You're not ready to say goodbye
But if you don't want to be with each other
Then I'll leave and cry

You always find a reason not to meet up with me
And I always end up getting disappointed
As I cry silently
I feel so disorientated

I'm getting tired of trying
It's just too much work
Please stop my crying
I can see the evil lurk

I want to lie down
And never wake up
I don't want to hear the sound
Of my own heart jump

To close my eyes and never open them again
To get rid of all my sorrow
To hope the night will let my life end
And not see the light of tomorrow

To never again feel touch
To lose my grip
To not love so much
And let my heart rip

Just trying tears me apart inside
Trying rips me apart
Not letting the pain subside
And leaves me stabbed in the heart

I feel so exhausted
I hate the cost
Of what this life costed
I'm so lost...