How could i have loved you before

How can i love you
when you feel so far away
nothings holding me here now
you're still here, why do i stay
i cant believe
any of this could be true
not after everything
you have put me through
i felt so alone
without you i cried
i always said i never loved you
then i realised i had lied
i cant bear not having you here
its a growing pain
being without you has become a fear
i cant work out if its worth living this crazy nightmare
for you i would do anything
i wish you would care
its become so hard
i never saw it this way
now its me that my pain i am screaming
now you're the one turned around
because you're not believing
this time its real
im sorry that before
i was too confused
but now i know how i feel
i wish you could see that now
it's so hard
i can't show you how
but i know now you're the one i want 24/7
always and forever,
i am going to love you kevin