Killing Me Softly

I sit all alone
in this lonesome night,
thinking about what she said,
thinking about what she meant,

Her heartless meanings
just killing me softly,
the denial just seeping in,
she just tearing me in,
even though she kills me softly
her presence like a drug,
keeps me alive, just
to kill me again

My feelings so subliminal
so meaningless, but seamless
is my longing for her,
is my need for her
eventhough, i am with her

How can i ever clear
clear this haze of misconceptions
this haze in which,
i am getting lost

Will i ever know
her feelings for me,
her thoughts about me,
or am i just another useless
curr in her way,
this i'll never know......