IF U ONLY KNEW

I'm hurting deep inside sometimes i

feel all alone like theres no one in

the world 2 call my own. I reach out

2 ppl from afar, but they don't

even see as i scream. Wishing my

life was a dream. Going on day by

day, but its always the same, but i

don't know y. My heart is beating,

but its no longer whole. My mind is

working, but my body is cold. I

reach out 4 Ur hand but its no

longer there. I'm 4ever scared. I'm

killing myself not physically but

mentally, but i don't know how 2

stop it. Life isn't suppost 2 b this

was. I'm not suppost 2 feel this

much pain. I don't understand y i

hate myself so much. I don't

understand y i judge myself so

much. I don't understand y i loved

u so much. how can one guy

change and persons whole life?

How can one guy b the reason y u

want 2 die? TEARS FALL FROM MY

EYES. This pain is 2 deep 2 even

describe. I FALL 2 MY KNEES. Y

me? Y do i have 2 feel this pain?

everyday that passes it gets harder

and harder 2 breathe. Sometimes it

hurts so bad that it feels like my

heart just wants 2 jump out of my

chest. What ppl see isn't the real

me. I'm no longer complete. I'm

broken from deep inside. Judge

me all u like cuz I'm already dying

inside. IF U ONLY KNEW..