To be free

In the times of yesterday's breath
My heart catches in my throat
As what was there now has left
Strewn across the poem I wrote
Tears of joy sprang to my eye
Secrets and burdens released inside
Decisions again, untangled before
Troubled like the life, I try to hide

In this place time after time
How I get here, must be a fault of mine
Always the same
Worry and pain
Why can I just not be free?

I've chosen a path
As I hope once more
This way I walk down
Won't close another door
I can't surely
Be the wrong turn over
Crying in the night
I cause too much grief
Please I pray
Give me my relief

I never know
What is truly in there
I never understand
How anyone could care
I wish I knew how I end like this
Please let me love
When I leave with a kiss