Crying myself to sleep everynight
Caring so much, but losing the fight
This battle I am losing very slowly
Is making the pain keep growing
Why can't things just get better
All i want is happiness and my friends to be together
Wishing and dreaming seem so unreal
Nothing is happening I am not healing
I miss the old me, my old life
When everything was perfect everything was alright
All those memories seem fake, they're fading away
They become fainter, smaller, more unreal everyday
I care so much but I'm the one getting hurt in the end
What did i do to deserve this, what can i do to mend
I hate this feeling i get all the time
Sorrow,hurt pain and the feeling people cant find
I've got so good at hiding how i feel
Because if anyone knew the real me it wouldnt seem real
The fear people would see would be because of me
All the things I try to overcome I wont succeed
Now I dont know what to do
I cant tell if anything is true
I have nothing left for me
Why is it so hard for people to see
I have only one deadly wish
And thats a swipe across the wrist
