I begin to forget.
I vaguely remember the day we met.
Ok, so thats a lie.
But if I convince myself, maybe I wont cry.
I try to ignore the things you do.
When you walk by, I concentrate on my shoes.
Im going through secession
From my deepest and darkest obsession.
One whiff of your scent throws me into a loop
Do you wanna know the latest scoop?
The emotional pain, and the physical too
Is killing me, but that, I guess, you already knew.
And in that second of the day that youre not on my mind, see..
Someone brings you up, someone reminds me
Then I start this deadly cycle over again.
I pull out some paper and a pen
And spill my guts out to the pages in my notebook
To ease the pain in the heart that you took.
When Im done, I try doing something to help me shirk
But it seems that nothings gonna work.
I try to fight my retention
Hope that something about you isnt mentioned
But whats the use?
Why do I put up with all of this psychological abuse?
The best thing for me to do is get away
As long as Im here, in my life you will stay.
I love you with all of my heart
But sometime soon, Ill need to make a new start.
Runaway from here. Maybe skip town.
Begin a new life, and settle down.
And maybe, one day, when I reach back into my recollection
And I let my memories of you make their resurrection
Ill try to bring you back into my life, maybe even give you a call.
Praying to God that move wont make me fall.
Im sorry if what I say is too hard for you.
Who knows if Ill do what I just said I will do.
