Lies and Guilt

They say I'm out of control
Completely losing grip
They all watch me
As I completley slip

They say that I need help
That I'm addicted to this new lifestyle
The sex, drugs,and drinking
But they wonder if it's worthwhile

They say I have a void
That I seem to need filled
And I do this with my life
Full of lies and guilt

Every weekend it's the same thing
Just with a different guy
Drinking and smoking
Until I'm completely high

Every week I feel the same way
Completely like a wh*ore
Hooking up with a different guy
Than the weekend before

And the lonliness and hurt
Grows so strong
Until I drink away my stress
And pretend nothing is wrong

I just want to feel needed
And loved by a guy
I can't figure it out
I have no idea why

I like being this way
And it the same
I just haven't figured out
The secret to this game