Why Did I Not Scream That Night?

Sleeping ever so peacefully I wake to a noise. Quickly opening my eyes there you are, I am confused. Am I dreaming, is this real? I ask myself, I look at the clock to my left. It screamed one-thirteen, I must be dreaming, but I no, I am not. You rub your hands around my body, I try to act like I am sleeping, maybe you will leave. You don't, you stay, tormenting me, while you have your fun. Moon shining ever so brightly, the twinkling of the stars, makes me wonder if the world is laughing at me for being stupid. So stupid for letting this happen to me. I want to scream, but I am silenced. By fear? Who knows, will I ever know why I did not scream that night? You finish, you leave, you say to me "Do not let anyone ever know about this." I do not reply to you, I let silent tears stream down my burning cheek. Laying there,I lost track of time, soon the sun was rising. I sit up, I felt so much shame, I felt so much pain. One thing that I always wanted to keep, was gone, cause of you. That night I shall never forget. Why me? I know I am not alone,but as I sit here I feel alone, ashamed, and guilty. Why did I not scream that night?