Love/hate

I love the blood
it punishes the beast inside
I love the scars
it stalks me
I love the pity
it lets me know you like the pain, as well as I
I love the nightmares
it reminds me it will only get worse
I love my empty eyes
they tell you to give up and move aside
I love the regret
it tells me i'm dying inside
I love the suffering
it gives me somthing to think about
I love life
it tells me somone had to be at the bottom
Theres a thin line between love and hate
I see them both at the same time
I hate the blood
reminding me of my sentence
I hate the scars
showing the past is real
I hate the pity
reminding me death is behind me, for all to see
I hate the nightmares
because I know there was a time without them
I hate my empty eyes
they keep you from helping
I hate the regret
it tells me I do care
I hate the suffering
it stalks me relentlessly
I hate life
It tells everyone I am at the bottom.