I Want.....

I want to feel
this love people talk about
i want to be in so much love
i would be able to randomly shout

i want to understand
the love lyrics i hear
i want the confusing love songs
to finally become clear

i want my life
to be a hit love song
i want more than i got
and i don't know what went wrong

how did my love song
turn in to a horrible wreck
how did this rope
suddenly appear around my neck

i want so much more
than the life i have now
i want the best guy to see me
and not question how

i want my life
to mean something to someone
i want people to be thrilled
to see what I've done

but instead I'm lost
in this life
with no boy by my side
constantly in a strife

people aren't thrilled
to see what I've done
instead they are disappointed
i've become someone to shun

how i came to this point in my life
i will never come to understand
this pain that brings me to the floor
looking up to find no hand

no one to care
no one to ask me why
standing in the rain
staring in to the sky

love is what i yearn for
yet love is what shattered me
i wounder when this curse will lift
i wounder when I'll finally be free