What I Want Most

I am sick of rejection,
I just want affection,
from someone so pretty and sweet as you,

I wanted this so long ago,
and i did not know,
that you would crush my heart too,

i will forever be haunted by the ghost,
that curses me from what i want most.
but for me this is nothing new,

even when my face gleams,
my dreams are only dreams.
they give me hope then never come true,

in this world many people cry,
desiring what i have and i wonder why,
i cant be happy, i guess i just have a different view,

though i try to persevere,
hoping my moment must be near,
it is still long overdue,

impatient, this is when,
i go and give my heart away again,
but the results are the same taboo,

i am sick of this sh1t,
this will never happen again i swear it,
caring and trying, i am through