Insomnia

Afraid I am of losing my life
After how hard I tried to live through this strife.
Afraid I am of losing my mind
Because I can`t see you i`d rather be blind.
Afraid I am of reliving the nightmare
Of that one cold day, she left me to bleed there

Afraid I am of losing you too
Do you even have a clue, how much I love you?
I just wanted you to know before you go
But why does this have to be
Please help me to see, what the hell is wrong with me

Now what do I do? it seems this knife is too dull
I may need something else to puncture my skull
Maybe the thought of the words you`ll soon say
Will be sharp enough to make me fade away