Feelings

You told me you couldn�t do this anymore.
You said you couldn�t be with me, and you said you knew it from the very beginning, though you didn�t say so.

You hid it from me, the way you really felt, You said you loved me, but then you turned around and broke my heart.

You told me I could trust you, trust that you wouldn�t ever do anything to break my heart, then you go and do the total opposite.

You hurt me so badly, Before this happened I felt like you were the one, I knew I couldn�t be with you, for we were to many years apart, But boy, I thought we could work it all out, you said you would be with me through everything, I guess it wasn�t meant to be true.

I knew I shouldn�t have gotten myself wrapped up around you, but I couldn�t help myself, I wanted to be loved, and you told me you could show me that someone could really love me, But I guess it wasn�t real. For that short amount of time you said you did love me, I felt like I was in a dream, like everything wasn�t real, it couldn�t be, Why would someone like you, want a lonely, love craving girl like me?

And now I know you didn�t want me, I still don�t know why you put on a act, as it seems to me you did, But I really wish you would of just been true, said you didn�t feel the same way I did to you, and not wait till I had fallen into more than I had ever felt with anyone, and then shatter my hopes, my dreams, everything I thought you were to me, Everything you broke.

You broke my heart, you broke me.
I told you next time I got my heart broken,
My heart couldn�t be fixed, Even after this has happened, I still feel so broken, so alone, so worthless. I�ve put on mask to everyone,
They don�t see what I�m feeling, what I always feel, Everyday I go through this, Having to feel this hurt inside, of what you did, and what others have done.

But I will say one thing, I forgive you,
For what you did, I know you did what was best, but I still cant believe you hid everything from me, I thought I could trust you , and now I know I cant trust anyone, I just end up always getting hurt.

I know Ill still feel like this for a while, I always do, But I want to move on, If only I could tell you all this, But I cant, Your gone from me, you say I�m still your friend, But to me, your gone, from my heart ,I want to be your friend, but if only you knew how hard it is for me to see you have look into your eyes without crying, if only you knew how I felt, I still feel so heartbroken when I see you, its all I can do to keep myself together.

I do want to see you, and I want to be your friend, But its so hard for me to work at this, when I cant talk to you, I said it seems like your gone, and this is why, I cant talk to you, I miss you so much, if only you knew, I wish I could tell you how I feel, But, its over. Everything with us is gone, the past. Just know that I still care about you, and I always will, ill always have a place for you in my heart, you\'ll always be my friend.