Mommy why

I never ment to hate you
i never ment to cry
i never ment to cut my wrist
hoping i would die
i never ment to hit you
but you gave me not a choice
i never ment to panic
every time i herd your voice
i know somehow you love me
but the drugs wont let me in
its OK for now
i don't need a friend
i know someday you'll call me
and say you need me home
and when that day gets here
i will be long gone
tomorrow they will take me
and you wont see me again
but mother i must say
i was always your best friend
i know so many thing
yet i never said a word
because no body would believe
my stories if they heard
the way i would come home
at what ever time i pleased
i was just a Kidd ma
i was just 13
and how you took away
the one love that i had
just because you drank that night
and i got you mad
this is goodbye forever mommy
now i have to leave
and all i have to say to you is
please remember me