My life...................

Don't watch and cry as I die
I know it's only an act
Don't act as if you care when I break down
I know you only laugh and joke behind my back
Why the hell should I try and catch you if you fall?
You wouldn't catch me at all
Unless to make my life more living hell
There is always that chime of the church bell...
Drilling into the back of my head...
As I sit and hide away from the darkness of my room
Thinking back to all the past gloom
Why should i bother anymore?
Why not never look back as I walk out of lifes door?