His hand sat on my shoulder
my hand sat inside his
something we wouldn't understand til we were older
it ended with a kiss
he took me home
and to a place
no one could have gone
he understood
he told me always
he would be there when he could
it didn't take too long to realize
that he never would
he told me everything would be OK
so i decided i wanted him to stay
he told me everything could be different
from all the pain i felt yesterday
he gave me all the answers
he said anything
that i would get so many more chances
he taught me how to say no
to anything i wanted
at first i thought i had to
but it turns out he was something different
he said he wouldn't force me
that there would never be an end
i thought he could be trusted
it turns out he wasn't what he said he was
he said no one could take my best friend
i asked him if he'd leave me
he told me he never would
so i told him i was having his baby
turns out he hadn't understood
he told me there were chances
but i never got the one to say
i aborted my baby
cos of the pain you caused so long ago
i lost my only chance to tell you
it's not your place to say
but the one thing i never really got was
why i went that way
when i could be without you
if only i hadn't asked you to stay
