What I never Felt

Every now and then
I think back to the days
when you all I had
all my fears would fade

we don't talk
you wouldn't hear me out
I still think....
what if you didn't ever doubt?

what If you believed me?
I never lied to you once
it's like you were someone else
my nightmare had begun

I used to cry
but tears turned to hate
loathing you was everything
for a while it was my fate

for those 2 years
love was what I knew
i thought of nothing else
my life , my heart, was you

but since that day
I got over everything
had I even loved you?
what was the song I used to sing?

"a thousand miles apart
a million pieces of our hearts.
that's what kept me from you
away from you......."

those were your words!
every night you said them
I still think back
wasted tears were shed

I still think.....
how I wasn't good enough for you
how no matter what i did
nothing could be true

but I had the strength,
you found someone else
love ruined my life
but love is nothing I've ever felt...