Toughts Caused By Depression

I'm reaching out is anyone there
if there is do you even care
I'm trapped in this world where loneliness awaits
wondring if I can help myself or is too late

I'm crying on the outside my tears fall down like rain
I'm hoping my tears will erase the agony of this pain
But nothing seems to change I still lye here cold in my bed
shivering at the moment with evil thoughts running through my head

Is this was torture is, feeling helpless with no way out
though my body's free, I can't escape these awful feelings that I felt
I think I tried almost everything, even almost taking my own life
thinking the pain will ease with just a cut from the knife

But it didn't turn out that way, my weakness stopped me on my way
and I realized that death would not take me on that rainy day
But now I'm here depressed and feeling so confused
I feel I have no future since theres nothing left for me to do

The people I love and care for has left me all alone
this empty house I live in, no longer feels like home
the bedrooms are empty and the only light shining in is from the moon
I know if I reach for my gun this pain will be all gone soon