This is why...

Every night I fall asleep, hoping I won't wake
But it's hard to live, when life seems like a mistake
When everyone around me, seems to do just fine
While every part of me, is always on the line
When every word you say, sounds just like a song
While anything I do, somehow turns out wrong
When every step you take, leads you somewhere new
While I end up going backwards, in everything I do
When every day I smile, but half the time it's fake
That's why when I sleep: I still hope not to wake