Canal to a Confession

I wish I had some way
to express what I feel inside
besides crying, besides writing
besides, besides, besides

What if I bottled my tears
and drank them till I drowned?
What if I took this pencil
and stabbed it through my wrist?

What if...
...next time I heard a siren
I ran outside to the road to meet the truck?
...I went on a cruise somewhere
just to become a missing persons report?
...I shattered a worthless picture
so I could used the glass to cut myself?

I guess that'd be a way
to express what I feel inside
besides writing, besides crying
besides, besides, besides