It is like a demon possessing me
Over my mind and everything
Like a sad song with no words
and every note is left unheard
It is like a disease no one can see
It is trying for something you can never be
It is like drowning in alcohol until ill
and spinning while you are sitting still
It is like an endless boring dream
Where I am lost until I scream
and tons of people are nearby
but they cannot see me as I cry
It is like a late night conversation
when feelings flucuate a lot
It is like hugging your pillow
knowing it is all you have got
It is like fucking until you scream
When desire takes over everything
and there is no such thing as right or wrong
and you just keep screaming so damn long
And then it is like the morning after
when you cannot even get out of bed
When everything is still a little dizzy
and there is a pounding in your head
and it is like hell but you do it again
Just get drunk to finally grin
cuz it is not often that I smile
I only laugh once in a while
Cheating, lies, and leaving church
are all included in the mess
of feeling only sinful tears
and never having happiness
And if I end my life this way
It'll be no different than yesterday
Just have more feelings just like these
and I'll fall to my death in agony...
