I beg of you.
1. By GEM
2/4/07
You always say I`m your light that guides you through life.
The place I was put was to high, and the presser I was under was to great.
I was never meant to hold up the world.
You always said I was your idol in they ways you tried to copy me.
Please....please don`t let this be true.
Because I`m not the kind of person you think I am. I always let others down.
I don`t want you to be sad when I`m gone.
Because this time i can not stop those tears, I will not be able to lift that frown.
I won`t ever be able to do those things again.
So please I beg of you do not let this be true.
Say I am not you guiding star...nor thinking of me as one, I do not want you to be this way.
Forget me I beg of you.
As I crash to the ground and crash of porcelain fallows.
Shattered faces of such childishness lay broken into many pieces that expressions all resemble you.
With all the looks you used to give me.
The blood flees from its prison.
I pry to god that you are not the one to find me.
As my breathes shallow out and my lids grow heavy.
And as the numbness takes over
I call out for you to forget me.
And for me to never be the one who inspires you.
I beg with my whole heart that you do not end up this way.
My dear little sister know I will always love you and that this is not your fault.
I did the best thing i could do to keep you from begin like me.
That is why I wanted you to hate me.
Cause of you hate ,e you will never want to be like me ever again.
And I know it will always hurt only me all the more.
When your eyes are fixed upon me,
But as I lay here waiting for it all to end I know that you`ll blame yourself.
So I beg of you to hate ,forget , and never to be like me.
And this is the only thing i would want you to do.
As my flesh grows cold and the metal in my hand is steadily coated in my tainted blood.
Know dear little sister I have always loved you...,
So I took my own life so you would not throw yours away.
