Undeserving

Take that big eraser
and write me out
forever.
i shall see no light,
feel no pain,
and no longer be your menacing burden.
devoured by gray, i am forgotten.
my love is canceled-
a drug i can't deal
for i gave it all away, and it was then deleted.
written in lead,
blood dripping to the sea.
when you say "lie down and be no more!"...
this, if you desire, will be done.

a blackout for the ages!
graphite scrapes at my eyes,
primary sense removed.
we ignite!
flames of night, destroyed by no one-
for who would care?
who would care?
the match has been struck,
eraser now worn down-
all for a purpose.

here comes the splash,
as i fall to the sea
i asked you to believe
but you could never see
i was not good enough
for you, for me.
if only i could have perished
on that cross-
for i am the one that is wrong.

i am done.
gray mournings
within unrequited glory.
i am but ash and rubber-
burned and expunged,
leaving you to find better.

depression.
rain is falling.
a ring of haze consumes.
midnight grows upon my grave,
as i sleep my blackened slumber.
just erase me.
do what must be done for your love to live on,
and erase me.

oh, to be forgotten...
i hope this dream comes true,
(who would care, who would care?)
you deserve better.
you will soon be thankful
that i am no more...
you can always turn that utensil around
and draw yourself someone new.

for i was undeserving, and i feel you knew it all along.