A Hard Time

I cried myself to sleep while I was contemplating on what I was going to do
about this whole ordeal Ive got going on with you
laying there choked up, the memories I hallow
but I must put that aside and make a decision I would follow
I wish it didn't have to come to this
but its the old person in you that I miss
but that person is gone, defeated by who you are now
and sometimes I pray you would bring him back somehow

But truth is you've changed and so have I
you've got caught up in your own lies
while I became weak and believed every word you said
all that is changing now I'm looking ahead
I'm looking at my future in a vision in my mind
and realized I don't want to live miserable for the rest of my time
Its not fair what I'm going through
but I brought this pain upon myself the day I chose you

You weren't right for me, I should have known
but the longer I was with you my love for you had grown
Being with you only made me plea
I ignored all the signs that were pointed out to me
I didn't want to believe that you were untrue
I was blinded with what love can do to you
I didn't go out, or do certain things you didn't like
I was too in love, I was too psyched

But now that I have came to my full senses
I'm taking in consideration of all your offenses
I'm not going to let you keep stomping on my heart
Ive made the decision to finally depart
no longer will I fill the ocean of tears
that is now overflowing from all the years