Living on the otherside

Walking to the fence, the thing that separates me from normal
peering through a hole, i see the world
smiling children running in the Fields, the light falling from the sky
were is the opening? show me the gate, i want to cross over to the otherside
alone behind this barrier, i stand with myself. the images in my head, my only companion. the one constant voice in my life.
a fence so high, my ladders cant reach its peak. roots so deep, my tunnels cant break through.
i hear the jubilation on the otherside, but I'm denied its perfect touch
excluded from the party, locked in the otherside of sanity
i use to dance at the party, laugh with the group. but so quickly life changes, so readily Friends turned their backs on me, leaving me stranded in the wasteland of my mind.
so self involved, you cant stand the change
your to concerned with yourself to hear my apology.
I'm left alone to cry to the wall you built for me. the thing that protects the people from my madness
but i have to pity you so much because you cant see, your own world is as ugly as me.