To sleep?

As i sit here
my muscles tense,
my stomach sick,
my head dizzy,
i am overwhelmed.

the anxiety grabs hold,
my throat tense,
my eyes strained,
a sickness crawling within me,
oh to finish the task!

where to start,
i sit here,
scratching my head,
i cant start,
its too difficult.

i don't want to be here,
i want to sleep,
to dream,
to love,
away from everything.

ah, to sleep,
the comfort of dreams,
the simplicity of awakening,
to know its not real,
a blessing and a curse.

i must go,
i must start,
make progress,
in this grueling society,
conforming, the rule.

my head hurts,
i sit back,
stretch out,
lie down to shut my velvet eyes,
to sleep... with endless possibilities.