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I'll sit alone when skies turn Grey,
another life's been wasted away,
I'll wake in the morning to ask myself why,
i can't take a moment to look at the sky.
My tears are running to fight the pain,
so i failed this time,but who's to blame?,
i dread the day we're face to face,
but in your arms i find my place.
It's dark this time,I'll walk the mile,
sit with my thoughts for a little while,
scared to think of things i feel,
but it can't be right,they can't be real.
I see the figure,the air grows cold,
it's all in my head,so I've been told,
I'll go through these stories one more time,
straight to the end so I'll be fine.
The sky grew red and set alight,
i have no sense of day and night,
the clouds turned black,the flames grew higher,
like hell had set the earth on-fire.
I embraced the day with burning eyes,
too far away to hear my cries,
I'll go back to a mind that's broken,
with secrets chained and words unspoken.
The presence that you want the most,
is always there,but never close,
but the tears don't fall for them to see,
instead they shape the one you'll be.
Hear a heavy breath at night,
deep in your eyes i see the fight,
to reach out for the open air,
would mean we're nothing,there's no one there.
I face a familiar wall each day,
behind one side are things to say,
the more i try to break this wall,
the more i crumble,the harder i fall.
The things i see are never real,
maybe I'm too numb to feel,
for the hand i hold will never be,
the one that's resting next to me,
and the eyes I'm facing every day,
reflect the words i fear to say,
but they'll never heal the pain inside,
there's nothing left to do but hide.
So I'll find my way into the dark,
and with every step I'll leave a mark,
deeper than the one before,
and with that,I'll close the door.
Locking every fear away,
and so my eyes will turn to Grey,
like the sky,so pale and long,
I've found a place where i belong.
My feet were never on the ground,
and i could never hear the sound,
the voice that calls me back to earth,
to re-assure me when I'm hurt,
the wake-up call before the time,
I'm sitting,running down the line,
falling deeper into thought,
the thrill of never being caught.
Maybe it will be too late,
my dreams of love will turn to hate,
the tears that run will turn to stone,
and I'll be lost without my home.
The tether starts fade away,
day becomes night,and night becomes day,
the sun will burn,the moon will break,
demons broke through heavens gate.
The world will be turned upside down,
but i will never leave this town,
I'll find comfort inside my mind,
reality will be hard to find.
While the world around me falls apart,
I'll be drowned in a shallow heart,
in the deep end is where I'll live,
there will not be much left to give,
or nobody to receive it all,
the end will come and i will fall,
just an empty shell once named,
another fool that will be blamed,
for never giving what they could,
and never being what they should.
All they wanted to give away,
was everything that makes them stay,
upon this earth than high above,
someone to care for,someone to love.
They sit alone and wonder why,
their only wish would be to die,
until everything they've ever craved,
comes along and they are saved.
Until then,we're chasing dreams,
but we're slowing ripping up our seams,
hoping someone will see the crack,
pick them up and take them back.
Leave them here to lie alone,
then we'll see how much we've grown,
but the ifs and maybes haunt my head,
if i could run away instead,
than to live each day without regretting,
all the things I'll be forgetting,
and wishing that i had a home,
along with someone to call my own.
I'll lie awake into the night,
wondering when we'll win this fight,
if i could see the things we need,
I'll take it all without the greed.
Somewhere in-between the mess,
there are things i must confess,
it all gets lost in the connection,
messing up my minds direction,
and i can't let it all flow out,
maybe it's what I'm all about,
I've gone too far beyond the door,
and i can't see the light no more.
I'll breathe each day without a care,
knowing that there's someone there,
but even though i know my worth,
someone in me fears the worst.
Too scared to hear the things at night,
but cannot face the morning light,
trembles at their every thought,
wondering if they might be caught,
but when their eyes will turn away,
there's someone deep inside to say,
''when i look at what's beside me,
i wish i had a mask to hide me,
they do not make me run in fear,
if only i could have them here,
close enough to hear each beat,
heal my pain down to my feet,
knowing they will not be close,
will always be what hurts the most''