I wish .

I Wish I were smarter,
To outwit the sorrow,
I Wish I were faster,
To outrun the pain,
I Wish I were stronger,
To fight away the heartbreak,
I Wish I were taller,
To be looked up to,

I Wish I could remember,
Remember you,
I Wish I could hold,
Hold onto you,
I Wish I could scream,
Scream out to you,
I Wish I could climb,
Climb out of this grave I'm still living in,

I Wish I had been there,
To see your better days,
I Wish I had cried,
Cried when you left,
I Wish I had known,
Known you better,
I Wish I had stayed in touch,
To be feeling you now,
I Wish I had told you,
Told you that I love you,

I want my mother,
To come back home,
I want my sister,
To be here,
I want my father,
To be weaker,
I want you,
To say you love me too,
I want death,
To take me into its arms,
I want these memories,
To burn in the depths of hell.

I Wish I were standing strong, I Wish I could stay here, I Wish I had been ready for this, I Wish I want to go home.Please take me home.
~Marina~