Fat

October 31, 2004

I can't stand myself
I can't stand my reflection.
and I don't think I deserve
anybody's affection

I've always felt like that though...
like I was never good enough
and like I needed so bad
to be better and stuff

I just can't stand
to look in the mirror
cause it's like everything's wrong
with the way I appear

and because I have this feeling
there's certain things I do....
certain things
that I put myself through

first off, I starve myself
cause I'm overweight
and being fat
is something I HATE.

I can't really think of anything else
maybe I'm just fat.
yeah, if there's anything I hate about me,
it'd definetly have to be that.

*my weight was 135 when I wrote this*