Defeat

This crushing feeling of defeat
It weighs down on your shoulders
Every stare that people give
you suddenly feel as though you're being weighed and measured
You feel as though they're breaking you down
Looking over your every fibre
Then they tell you that you're worthless
Alot of us just laugh and scoff them
But so many more pause and wonder...
Am I truly worth anything?
Would anyone notice if I just disappeared?
I've seen this second person so many times
Every time i see it
This crushing defeat...
It adds a weight to my already burdened shoulders
This crushing defeat is like a spreading plague
When you're touched it infects you
And kills some of the joy in your life...
I have felt this plague dance about me many a time
But with so many times
I have learned to just brush it off my shoulders and move on with my life
So many people feel this plague bearing down on them every day of there life
Some people seek repreive from this torture at the tip of a blade or the end of a gun
I feel these peoples sorrow and it touches me deep down
And this crushing feeling of defeat...
Latches onto my shoulders once more
And bears me down to the ground
Where i lay and cry
For this crushing feeling of defeat...
Is all consuming
And then eventually is all ends at the touch of a lover
She tells you
Its all just a nightmare
Do not be afraid
For i am here
And i will not let you go